Hmm. so many times hard to honestly pick out one. They’ve all been pretty good. I guess my favorite was one time my ex came back in town and we had sex for the first time after three months of being broken up. It was so hot, and passionate. It was very amazing.
Alot of things have been reminding me of you. Many people say that girls with daddy issues often become troubled. I think I’m troubled. They say that I will try to replace you with a guy. But If I’m trying to fill your spot with another guy, why don’t I let them take care of me. Who knows why I am the way I am. Lately I have been trying to figure myself out, the more I do that the less I actually find out. I do have questions though. Why didn’t you treat me like your little princess? Why were boys only allowed in the conversation? Why didn’t you read my poems? Why didn’t you encourage my talents? Where were you for my birth? Where were you for my 8th grade graduation? Where were you for the little plays, the talent shows, the teacher conferences. Working?. Right. Yeah . That seemed to always be the excuse. Hey remember the time you told me you were going to come see my show. I looked out into the audience, and you weren’t there. Remember when you got my hopes up, and I just felt like the biggest idiot for believing that you would actually be there. Remember when I asked you to bring me to the daughter-father dance and you told me that you had to work, yeah bullshit. Is it really your fault I’m this way, maybe. I can’t let men in the way that they want. After seeing the way that you treated mommy, how could I. I had to stand up for my mother, and myself. She was weak, I vowed to never be that weak. I was her strength believe it or not. But now I won’t let down my guard. Im sorry to all the guys that actually tried and I refused. Normally I wouldn’t blame anyone but myself, but in this case I do blame you. But back to my original question:
If I’m trying to fill your spot with another guy, why don’t I let them take care of me?
Well. I think its clear now. I always had to take care of myself. I had to be the strength, who else would have?. You’ve kinda fucked me over, but at the same time you’ve helped. You’ve made me a force to be reckoned with, a better judge in character, and overall a wiser person when it comes to love.