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Just about everyone goes into school wanting to make a new impression, if not the same impression. School comes with alot of work…bullshit…and drama. The first day of school is well…hell. Snarky looks from stuckup girls, tension with people you cant stand, and most importantly patience. Everybody’s kryptonite. Im sure everyone hates the idea of waking up and sitting in classes for 6 hours. But what people do love about school is the drama. And our school is not too far from becoming a Degrassi episode. Yeah , we say we hate drama but why are we so prone to include ourselves in it ? Its because its the only rush we can find. Drama is a rush, and is free to the public, so why not take it. Anyways…i guess everyone comes in with a goal, even underachievers . My goal is to simply, be me and let others be them. Confidence helps . I’ve learned that you are who god intended you to be and so what if you aren’t as skinny as one girl, or if your skin isn’t the clearest, or if your hair isn’t the straightest, or if you aren’t the best at a subject….just take it as it is and work with it. Don’t let insecurities bring you down . Sure there are times where i feel ugly and gross but everyone has those days* [ try not to make that everyday]. I can guarantee that someone wants what you have. Let other people be themselves too. You can’t blame them for the way they are and you certainly can judge them . If a girl is wearing heavy eyeliner, black clothing, and her hair is teased, you would assume she’s “weird”?. But no she isn’t . She just another person that shares the same emotions and she is only being herself. So appreciate the difference you see in people, these days seems like everyone is trying to be the same. So basically i’m ready for school. Ready to put down the sunscreen, short shorts, and sunglasses, and pick up some pens and pencils, notebooks, and a backpack. 

Dont you love how once one finger points at you, all of a sudden 10 more follow after. I don’t understand why people like to accuse me of something i am not doing in the first place. Maybe considering a past mistake i’ve had made, you would feel like i am the easiest target but it and still gives you no right. Funny how we call eachother friends meanwhile you can even accuse me of sabotaging what you have. I wont jump into specifics, but if you are reading this i was honestly hurt. There was no need to even come off the way you did when you addressed me with this ” problem ” . Of course you see it in a different light, but your lights are clearly dimmer than mine. Which means… my view is stronger. But whatever. Its done now…but i still love how people are so quick to talk behind my back as soon as one thing occurs when they clearly don’t know the other side of the story here. Shows how much you all really have grown. This is my open confession, take it how you want. My main message here is, if i am “your friend”…i wouldnt intentionally try to get you upset for any reason. And if we are friends, how can you think that i was trying to do that.