I’m not even sure why I am so upset. I have alot of great events coming up but for some reason Im in a state of absolute sadness. I’m longing for something. Or someone new . Something new. Anything that doesn’t require me to have to be anyone else but me. Is it so wrong to want someone to find you remarkable. Irreplaceable. Someone who genuinely cares about you. I’m thankful for my bestfriend, who makes me feel that way but obviously she and I are friends. I want a man to find me remarkable. No man does. The other night I did something that didn’t make me feel so special. I was just another girl. I just want to be the exception. The one that changes things.