I hope I fall asleep, and stay asleep until my heart feels complete again.
Home alone
Its late . Moms not home yet and i desperately want to take shower without having 10 panic attacks . I am lonely. I just want somebody here so I at least feel safe. I miss you to be honest. You make me feel safe .And although we talk mildly in school, i still wish we could hang out more . I just want to stay up late and watch scary movies with you while eating shitty microwavable popcorn and gossiping about other people. I want to play video games, look at my embarrassing baby pictures, listen to sick music, smoke a little, drink a little, joke a little. I don’t need to hold your hand or kiss your lips or hear you say ” i love you” or anything. I just want my bestfriend back . I know it could never be the same as before but … Who gives a fuck ? Worth a shot isn’t it ?
